power is powerful

Beginning in probably middle school, i knew i was different from the other kids my age. I didn't feel the need to cheat on my homework, i always felt the guilt that would come from it for even thinking it, i never had a wild spell like most, i never even drank in high school. And though i am praised by my parents for standing up to peer pressure and doing what was right, i feel like an outcast for not partaking in events like that. I would always hear girls gossiping on monday about the awesome party they went to that weekend, and who they hooked up with. Don't get me wrong, hooking up with random guys on the weekend is not my idea of fun, but i always felt like i missed out on the experience of being a teenager for doing what was right, and i take a lot of crap for it, i even beat myself up a little bit for it.
As my 20th birthday nears, i am constantly wondering on what i missed out on. I know looking back isn't helping my cause, but did i waste these years of my life sitting at home on friday nights wondering with all my friends were doing? I wish i had taken more risks, played a little more, and had opened myself up to more people.
But hey, now that i know what i want, i can accomplish that AND more in my twenties. And probably have more fun than i would have in my teens!